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Fitness Training News

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Supposed to be leaving for PBP tomorrow but... Feeling sad and left out today. Tomorrow was the day Steve and I were going to France to ride in Paris Brest Paris/PBP. Instead, I'm not packing, not riding, and not going. Sucks to be injured gain. So many of our friends are going and we will have to cheer them on in our thoughts.

We've waited so many years to go and then after the car accident and all of the surgeries it is so bittersweet to know I would have made it. To know what I/we went through to get me back riding and to get through all of the qualifiers. To get so close-yet to be soooo far away from being there. Four more years. This can be a life time. Especially knowing how short life can be.

Now my days are spent meditating (to get through the agony of another surgery), rehabbing, getting work back on track, and morning the loss of not going to something that meant so much to us and took so long to get to.

The worst feeling is that I cannot show that I was pulling off a great come back. To show myself that I was able to coach myself back onto the bike and back into the qualifiers and then through PBP. That I would not let Steve down.  Even I wasn't sure if I was going to pull it all off. So close. Weeks away.

So this week will be had to get through and will be even harder at the time of the start. But, as one lovely dear neighbor wrote to me. "You've been here before, and you can  do it again. And you will". She sees in me something that I hope I never lose. Determination. Something great coming from a spunky lady who is 86 years old. Lived in Alaska, built a house in the Boulder mountains (when there was only a dirt road to her house). I bet she's overcome a lot in her life time. She's a terrific friend to have.

On a good note. Saw the hip surgeon today. I can now place weight on my leg and occasionally walk solo across the kitchen and soon across the gym floor. Yahoo. Life is looking up. Only a few weeks left and then rebuild all of the muscle. Oh can also get on the trainer. That will happen tonight after work!

Looking at the positive is very important. Keep looking forward. One foot in front of the other.

Four more years.


# posted by Michelle Grainger @ 3:28 PM 0 Comments

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Change. Time for change and more contemplative thought.




No clue why this photo. It's kind of meditative in it's own beauty.


Been spending loads of time just thinking . Thinking a lot. Thinking about who I am, who I want to be and where I want to go.


My right wrist hurts enough, all of the time, that I wonder what I will be able to do with it in the future. Not complaining because I know I will make what ever I want to do, work. I have a good brain. I can use it. Use it to find new ways to do things. But is a big change in the futire?


I love working with people. My clients. I have moved my life froward to work with people and teach them how to be more healthy. To be fit. I strongly believe fitness is how we can overcome adversity. Challenges. They are going to happen. Sometimes all in a clump-like what has happened to me the last 25 months. If I wasn't fit and had not used sports/fitness to challenge me throughout my life-well, I do not think I'd be able to be so positive with so much that has happened. Both mentally and physically. Challenges. Gets us to motivate.


Don't get me wrong. It hasn't been all positive and easy. I have days where I think I just don't want to move forward. Too much has happened. So many injuries so many hard times. These thoughts don't last long because I feel that if they do last long they get you stuck in a bad place. A place where I don't want to stay. It's not a productive place and can lead to really negative feelings. I do feel these sad and depressed feeling thoughts need to be felt-if not they'll get you some time down the road. So I learn from them. Use them to do a lot of thinking. A lot of meditating. A lot of searching.


I heard about a yoga instructor at a local gym. He's in a wheelchair. I have to look this guy up. Talk about positive energy. Very cool.


Positive thought. Listen to the negative, think about it and let it go. I think letting go of negative thought is like letting go of negative energy. Also, letting go of the people that may be holding us back. 


Yup, that's change and change is progress. Even if it's scary.



# posted by Michelle Grainger @ 2:24 PM 0 Comments

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